My first thought was not one of gratefulness. It was more like "ugh, five more minutes....do I really have to go to to work today.....I really don't want to go to that place AGAIN...."
I work for a pretty good company - decent benefits (although people probably assume they are better since I work for a subsidiary of a very large insurance company, but I digress), nice people (except for my boss), I have my own office and they pay me well.
Eventually. this will focus only on the good. I'm not there yet.
This place drives me CRAZY. Absolutely fucking crazy. My boss is sick and won't go out on leave; says that her illness won't change her life, she will continue living even though she's sick. When she told me that, I didn't know that her continuing to live her life would also mean that she would turn into a gigantic bitch. She's nasty, rude, condescending and just plain mean - and this is in meetings. Aside from her, there's the time off issue. I can't work from home so if I need to be somewhere else, like picking my daughter up from school on a "half day" (half day my ass....school starts at 8:25 and gets out at 11:45 - that is NOT a half day) or dropping my car off for work, I need to use up my time off. Also, the last time I felt like I was important to the organization and I felt like my work mattered, was probably a few years ago.
I know, I need a new job. And possibly a new attitude. I am working on getting both of those in place.
Our jobs, to some extent, define us whether we like it or not. We are there more then we are at our homes and most of us spend more time with our coworkers then with our families; in many instances, our coworkers become family. So it is hard to not let it get to me and to not 'bring it home' at the end of the day. So today's goal on my grateful journey....
Goal 1: Be grateful for the job that gives me the paycheck that pays for school, pays the mortgage, puts food on the table, clothing on my back, shoes on my feet (cute shoes, at that) and takes care of the cats. Okay, so I pay half of that stuff - well, the school and the mortgage half...but anyway...grateful...grateful....grateful!!
This will be my goal today. Focus on the money. Hey, I have to start somewhere! And if I can't focus on the money enough to feel grateful, then I will try it again tomorrow. Try, try again as the old wives say.
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