The Universe is Testing Me!!!

I went to sleep last night, and woke up today, concentrating on this new job I'm waiting on - I should be getting an offer any day.  Well, at least I *think* I'm getting an offer, anything is possible but it seemed like it was in the bag. Anyway, I woke up forcing myself to concentrate on that because it's a good/happy/positive thing to focus on. (What if I don't get it?  Oh....well....that will suck but I will try to focus on interviewing for the position at least gave me experience....probably.....)

And then.

I'm fresh out of the shower, putting product in my newly cut curly hair and I hear creeeeeeeek - the sound of my daughter's door opening.  FUCK.  She's up early and totally ruining my plan for my morning.  I need - yes need - about 10-15 minutes each morning to myself to drink coffee, watch the birds in the yard and enjoy the quiet.  My almost five year old is VERY loud and chatty so I revel in every moment of silence that exists in my house.  But not today.

So here I sit, on my couch, with her at 7am.  I've made her breakfast, she's watching cartoons and she's mostly quiet.

Why was I so pissed when she got up??  Sure, it wasn't what I planned for - hi, life never goes exactly the way we plan (what's the proverb - man plans and God laughs) - but really, what's the big deal? Generally, she's a good kid and she can keep herself busy with a cartoon and some food.  I can still do all of my stuff, I just had to adjust what I normally do so I could include her breakfast in with the other things I wanted to do. 

I'm PMS'ing, yesterday was the anniversary of my Dad's passing, I hate my current job and did I mention the hormones????  Today, I will try to focus on calming down when I want to freak out and scream.  I will try to breath, focus on something that makes me happy (like puppies - who doesn't love puppies????), and try to control the freak out.  Maybe I'll make a sign for my office - "CONTROL THE FREAK OUT". Yeah, that wouldn't go over so well with the boss.....